Diary of a Wallflower in a Field

2010-03-15T00:50:00.002-04:00

AHEM. Hello :)
Little update. I've moved. Again. Yes, I know, Again. Some amazing things have happened since September, when I started that disgusting, cynical, gross tumblr.

God is good. And I've started sharing about my frsh starts on my new blog:
meuscarmenestamor.blogspot.com

Please, check it out, then follow.

God bless :)

Sleep well.

MOVING

2009-09-04T11:20:00.001-04:00

okay, i've decided not to delete this blog...exactly... just move it..
i like the way tumblr works better...so i'll be using that..
my tumblr is http://littlemissnicole.tumblr.com/
so go over there...its cooler :):)

Moving. On.

2009-08-08T22:49:00.003-04:00

Sadly, I must delete this blog. It is a new school year, and this one has lost its purpose and is interfering with my journal on blogger .....
I have my list of resolutions and such for the school year and thus, as one is becoming a vegetarian, and exercising 2-3 hours a day....i will be starting a blog about that....because i dislike exercising and love meat....soooo, adios! and to my 3 followers, please follow my new one :):)

*Sawyer

{life's a vapor}

2009-07-11T19:02:00.002-04:00

(papaw and mamaw, about 1.5 months ago)

I think i spelled vapor wrong, but what does that matter.

Monday at 9:45am, my Papaw, David Elmer Harry Lay, died and went to Heaven, that started a rush to make the 8 hour drive to the valley of a mountain in West Virginia where he, my Mamaw, and my Uncle, Aunt, and their family live. though, the occasion was sad, it was wonderful seeing all my family, especially my older brother Michael (30) and sister Sara (25). They are my half-siblings and i've just been getting to know my sister. and of course my brother is so much older, we were never really close.. But they came up and rather than spending their time with their mom (they were staying at her house) they stayed with our family the whole time.. It was cool cuz we got past the "hows it goin" conversations and really got to know them better.. Papaw's funeral service was beautiful. i think he would have loved it.

anyways, Papaw I love you, and will see you on the other side.

I have more to say since its been several days, but will do so later.

*Sawyer

Movin on..

2009-07-06T08:40:00.002-04:00

This morning my parents got te dreaded call saying that my Papaw (my dad's dad) was close to the end...He has been sick for awhile, and it look slike hes gonna go on to see his Lord soon. He is such an incredible man, I will miss him, and will write more about him as soon as I can, but now I have to go pack and get ready to go on the 8 hour roadtrip.

*Sawyer

Pic of Kristi and I with Papaw last time we saw him (the end of may)

Oh, Glee...

2009-07-05T15:49:00.003-04:00

This weekend, well, lets just say I have felt incredibly Patriotic. I love the Fourth of July. Also, yesterday morning I ordered a Holga Multicolor camera... I will be here in 5-10 business days.

I. Can't. Wait. Yesterday, I accidentally took a nap on the couch, and dreamt about taking pictures with my holga. Next on my list is a Polariod, a Diana Dreamer, a fancy photographer's camera, and a Russian camera. I'm excited!

My family has been certifiably (sp?) insane this week, eh, well, more than normal, so, ya know, it hasn't been a favorite week.

On the bright side, I'm almost done cutting out everything for my collage and an going to Home Depot this afternoon to get Wallpaper glue...The New York Times and the Wall Street Journal are going to act as the wallpaper, I'm pretty sure it will be awesome!

*sawyer

(Picture taken using Holga Multicolor, compliments of lomography.com)

Oh, How I Want One. So Badly.

2009-06-30T16:59:00.002-04:00

Aren't these bikes lovely. I can see riding it around now. Ah, yes, how I love Summer, so much.
*Sawyer

Sunday Pleasures...

2009-06-28T15:41:00.003-04:00

Lately, I have really been wanting to turn the walls of the hallway leading up to my bedroom into collages....so badly, but, i think my parents would not be pleased...

Also, I ran across this cute picture and really want it...on my WALL :)

Hope the rest of your Sunday is fabulous!

*Sawyer

Does this only annoy me??

2009-06-27T12:36:00.002-04:00

Am I the only girl that CAN'T stand the "three day rule" that guys do...

This guy, a friend, actually- more like an aquaintance (sp?) that I like, and everyone says he likes me, messaged me on Facebook, I happened to check it a few hours after he wrote me, and responded, cuz why wouldn't I.

Now, its been 2.5 days, and he hasn't responded...and I happen to know he checks it like EVERY day, cuz, ya know, there is a "recent activity" section on his profile. I mean really, why. 3 days. ugh, so dumb.

*Sawyer

{Secret Pleasures}

2009-06-25T00:38:00.004-04:00

This week has been especially hard... I suppose I will have to explain to some degree the family mess that is so complicated...and frustrating and leading me to certain decisions..
So lately, I've just wanted some comfort stuff...so:
here are my guilty, secret pleasures....and just so you know, writing this out, well, its makes me laugh and think myself incredibly lame. oh well. haha, i love them. no lie.

*Sawyer

My 16th Birthday

2009-06-18T18:47:00.002-04:00

So, Kristi and my birthday was Tuesday. We had loads of fun, and did lots of awesome stuff. We went to Malibu (A go-kart ish place) and then to see the laser show at Stone Mountain. While at Stone Mountain, I rediscovered my love for Cracker Jacks, and would like to share the note I made for them. it said: "Cracker jacks and cracker jack man, how I have missed you."
So there it is. AND below are some pictures and videos.

Pictures:

(No, we didn't plan this, we just ended up talking like that.)

(at Malibu.. waiting in line....)

*Sawyer

Pre-Birthday Jitters

2009-06-15T19:10:00.005-04:00

Today was the first day of Summer Music Camp and I am an Assistant. It is so fun. I'm working with the 4th-6th graders. They are cool, they are old enough that they don't want me to entertain them, but rather, they try to act like me cuz they think I'm cool.. which is fabulous. Cuz, ya know, i'm no cooler than the next person, but hey, whatever they wanna think.

Anyways, Music Camp is the rest of this week. AND, tomorrow, Kristi and I turn 16, and we are having having a little party with our 3 best friends, my parents, and my super awesome aunt "t" . It will be fun! Last night, Kristi and I had gotten home from working outside for 8 hours, and were goofing off with my mom, i think the goofi-ness was induced by the sun...anyways, she video- taped us being stupid and said "we would loveto look back at that one day." haha, sounds good to me.

I decided to post the video up here...and below it, a picture of me and my grandpa from Christmas. So, here they are....

*Sawyer.

Trip

2009-06-13T15:37:00.003-04:00

This is a pictures from my trip. The picture are of a closed down building. Of course, I edited it. There was a motel right next to it....but I haven't edited it yet.

*sawyer

Speeding.

2009-06-13T06:27:00.002-04:00

Today I have the ACT. I'm freaking out because I am really good at math, but have a really hard time retaining it. and so while i'm a year ahead in math, well, lets just say i get mad and frustrated. And science, well, we're not even going to go there. The thing is, this ACT will count, i mean of course itt would, but i'm going to be a junior in the fall, so, I will be taking it again :)
huzzah. anyways, if you pray, say a quick prayer or me.
*Sawyer

home.

2009-06-12T09:26:00.003-04:00

Last night around 11 Kris and I got home. Oh my gosh, my dogs were SO excited, it was sweet. It was great seeing my dad and cat again too. Unfortunately, I left with my room kinda messy. There are few things I hate, but coming home to a not-entirely-clean-room is one of them. Today I'm stuck studying for the ACT which I take tomorrow.

Here are a few pictures from my trip. I have a few more to post...but I have to get back to studying....(I took over 900 while I was gone, how crazy is that?)

(I love clover...if it wasn't obvious)

*Sawyer

I'm so happy and content...I can't help it.

2009-06-11T08:51:00.004-04:00

I am so happy, I want to go frolic in a field or a town begging to have pictures taken in it.

So. I am going home today. I'm looking forward to seeing my parents, considering I haven't seen them in like 2 or 3 weeks. Also, I miss my dogs, Daisy and Boo (Golden Retriever and Chihuahua), and my adorable cat, Wilbur. Also, I miss my bedroom, terribly.

BUT, on the other hand, I never want to leave, even if I am helping out with my choir's Summer Music Camp and singing Carmina Burana with the ATL Symphony & Chorus- at their year old Amphitheater, which is beautiful and I love singing at. Its just a magical experience, every time, where ever we sing with them.

OH, I'm so happy, "You Belong With Me" by Taylor Swift JUST came on my grandparent's xm radio (on their tv). they have played the greatest mix of music today :)

Lovely Story:
So my sister (Kris) and I are turning 16, on Tuesday. We had forgotten how soon our birthday was, so now we are super excited. Anyways, last night our cousins from Uniontown, Pa, came down and my grandpa let us build a campfire and roast marshmallows. It reminded me of when I was like 7, Grandpa and Grandma were building their current house, and we would have campfires every night. I loved it.

Also, My grandma had us all come inside and they surprised Kristi and I with a birthday cake and song. For a second we couldn't figure out who they were singing to. It was a really good ice cream cake. yummmm. So that was incredibly nice. ( grandma got the cousins to get the cake...go cousins.)

And if that wasn't enough, after our cousins left, Grandma had our birthday presents on the dining room table. I was shocked because while Grandma always sends something, she had it for a us right then , and it was bath & body works, stuff, which I adore. Even more surprising, I HAD NO CLUE. which is rare, I'm pretty good at getting wind of thoses kinds of things

Ban.do

2009-06-09T14:43:00.002-04:00

This adorable headband is from heart by ban.do . I want it. I must keep telling myself....college, car..college, car....college, car.

Okay, I' m good now. But i still lovvvvve it.okay....bye!
*Sawyer

You just have to smile...

2009-06-09T09:40:00.002-04:00

Sunday afternoon my mom's parents picked Kris and I up from a friend's house in D.C. We went to their house in Morgantown, WV. Now, in case you're wondering, NO, they are not hicks, actually farthest thing from it. My grandad grew up on some property and in 2000 he decided he wanted to move back to WV from New Mexico. He built his own house, using the same plan he used for his last 4 houses, and now lives on his childhood property. It is 19 acres, and the nicest, prettiest place around. i. love. it.

My grandad is one of my best friends....actually, hes in my top 3. Every morning he goes to bob Evans to "read the paper and get some coffee." He has done that for as long as I can remember. He sits at the bar, nows all the servers, and makes friends with all the other older men. Back in New Mexico Grandpa went to The Owl Cafe. Hur main server was Lisa, she had a metal arm and was so nice. Now, he goes to Bob Evans, his main server is Rae, and she is so bubbly.

And the Older Men, oh my gosh, you shouldn't get me started. 1st, there is Kirk, he comes every morning and is really laid back. Then there is Gary, apparently, he just got back from his vacation to Aruba. I haven't seen him since he's been back, but he told Rae he "missed waking up to the nude beach." haha, silly old men, ya gotta love 'em.

Today, we are burning some sticks and limbs, going grocery shopping (since its senior day!!) and hanging out. I will have to share more of there traditions and such later...and I MUST tell you about my grandma too. But alas, I must go study for the ACT, which I have to take the day after I get back home :(
*Sawyer

(Also, I will post pictures of them later :D)

just. one. more.

2009-06-06T21:11:00.002-04:00

I must stop looking at clothes and such. anyways, this is another dress by Kate Towers. How sweet is it. I really like it.

For real, look at the post titled, Kate Towers=genius and click on the link i have there to see her phenominal collection.

*sawyer

What do I want?

2009-06-06T21:02:00.003-04:00

As I get older my mom will occasionally asl me what kind of guy I could see myself falling for. I don't really like talking to her about that kinda stuff, more the type of thing I would be more comfrtable talking to my twin sis about. But I think its an interesting question so here it is:

1. Christian and really truly loves God and wants to please Him.
2. Loves to make me laugh, but isn't stupid.
3. Will occasionally cook for me.
4. make me feel happy when I'm sad.
5. makes me feel beautiful when i'm not.
6. likes cats and dogs.
7. loves color
8. is spontaneous
9. likes artsy fun cool unique things.
10. makes me feel safe
11. has a good cool job.
12. enjoys breakfast for dinner.

12, well thats all i could think of for now, i'll definately add more later.
*Sawyer

{life's fullest}

2009-06-06T20:44:00.002-04:00

I found this picture on a blog and found it put me in absolute awe. I love this picture so much. It is beautiful.

How incredible is that. I mean I know a baby in the womb isn't ooze or anything, but seeing a little foot poking the mom's stomach is just awesome.

*Sawyer

2009-06-06T16:51:00.001-04:00

Eating rice crispies sitting in the recliner with kristi and watching tv. The perfect saturday afternoon activity :D

Life is good...

2009-06-06T13:23:00.002-04:00

I have had so much fun here in DC this week. It has been fun in so many ways, and it has been great getting to catch up with the Schwarzwalders. I don't really want to leave yet, but at the same time, I'm ready to visit my Grandpa and Grandma. While we've been here, we've met some of there friends and neighbors and they are just too fun, cool, and friendly. It has been super great. Anyways, right now I'm listening to Lady Gaga, isn't she awesome? I love her music and NEVER get tired of it, which is rare. "u got me wonderin why i like it rough..." haha.

I'm hoping to post more later, but I felt like I needed to post somethin :)
*Sawyer

Kate Towers= Genius

2009-06-04T20:55:00.000-04:00

I'm coveting this dress by Kate Towers. I know coveting is wrong :P , but its just lovely. In fact, go here to see more dresses and such, all of which I immediately loved. Ah, if only I wasn't saving. This should go on my b-day wish list. for. sure.
~Sawyer

Alexandria: Mistake

2009-06-04T20:21:00.004-04:00

I just realized that in my last post I failed to post the picture of the lovely coin purse I bought at The Christmas Attic. I am sorry, especially since I promised I would. SO, here is the picture :

It is not a good picture, but it is super-dee-duper fun. Anyways, have a lovely Friday, and if you watch TV, watch the premiere of Season 3 of Burn Notice TONIGHT :D

~Sawyer

Alexandria, Va. awesome

2009-06-04T00:46:00.004-04:00

The beginning of Summer '09 has just been fantastic. I am in D.C. with my twin sister, Kris, and we are visiting a family we used to babysit for. They actually live in Alexandria, which is such a lovely place. We went into Downtown Alexandria a few days ago, and went to a tremendous shop called The Christmas Attic. Click here to check out their sight, which does not adequately show how wonderful the shop is. Anyways, I found a super little coin purse there, and will post a picture of it below. We have done bunches of other fun things, and have SO enjoyed getting to catch up with all of them. Right now my sister and I are goin' back in time a bit and watching a marathon of the 1st season of MacGyver. It is fun :)

(Kris and I with the kids we babysat when they lived in GA. Taken across from FDR Memorial)

(Kris, my pretty twin sis)

Meet Sawyer. (Me)

2009-06-01T14:11:00.004-04:00

I'm going to write 40 things about myself so whoever reads this will have an idea of who i am.

1. My name is not Sawyer. My real name is a French name. I just love the name Sawyer.
2. I have a twin sister. and a half brother and sister (30 and 25)
3. I'm homeschooled.
4. I love music.
5. I'm a junior in High School.
6. I sing and play the Piano.
7. I want to make fun documentaries.
8. I want to become an incredible photographer.
9. I am going to travel and such as much as I can when I get older.
10. I love God, Jesus, and church.
11. I thoroughly enjoy watching TV, for example: Burn Notice, Psych, Heroes, In Plain Sight, Chuck, and How I Met Your Mother. But I rarely actually have the time to sit down and watch them.
12. I don't have a boyfriend, but really like a guy. Whatevs, doesn't take up much of my mind.
13. I think there is a serious lack of talent and originality in Hollywood. Especially in the music industry.
14. I have a cat, Wilbur, and a Golden Retriever, Daisy. I love them too much.
15. I try to forgive and forget.
16. I'm a shy in some settings, but am usually super friendly.
17. My Grandpa is one of my best friends. ever.
18. Secretly, and not so secretly, I've wanted to be a singer for as long as I cana rememeber.
19. I try not to use bad words, but occasionally do when I'm super angry.
20. I love Lipstick.
21. I believe that Coldplay is most likely the BEST BAND that has been around in a really long time.
22. Bowties, on certain guys, look fantastic, and those who are awesome enough to wear them, and wear them well should be commended.
23. I love math, but have a hard time retaining it.
24. I hate cliques. with a fiery passion.
25. I call my friends grandparents, gramma or granpa, its just fun and they like it.
26. I know you can't recycle time, so you shouldn't waste it.
27. I don't play sports, but would like to start.
28. I love baking and doing yard work with my grandparents. Also, I love helping my Grandpa remodel the house he built 3 years ago.
29. I try to relax and just enjoy the hustle and bustle of life.
30. The smell of freshly cut grass is possibly the best smell in the world.
31. I collect miniature shoes. They are called "Just the Right Shoe". Love them.
31. My converse are my favorite shoes.
32. I need to lose 10 pounds.
33. I always paint my nails yellow. It actually looks good.
34. I LOVE Lady Gaga, and liked her before she was famous, which makes me feel like I have good taste.
35. I love crazy socks.
36. I love school.
37. I find sleeping on the floor quite comfortable.
38. I LOVE Ikea.
39. I can't wait to get out of High School
40. I'm excited to see what will happen in the Future.

Thats all for now. Maybe more later.

2009-06-01T14:01:00.001-04:00

Im posting from my phone. Success

The Beginning.....

2009-05-15T03:00:00.000-04:00

Blogger is such a super thing. I have my journal on here....which is private...so i guess that makes it more of a diary :)
either way, this is for personal stuff, but mostly positive, quirky little things that make me happy. i hope people will read it and enjoy it..i know i will have fun writing it :)

Diary of a Wallflower in a Field

MOVING

Moving. On.

{life's a vapor}

Movin on..

Oh, Glee...

Oh, How I Want One. So Badly.

Sunday Pleasures...

Does this only annoy me??

{Secret Pleasures}

My 16th Birthday

Pre-Birthday Jitters

Trip

Speeding.

home.

I'm so happy and content...I can't help it.

Ban.do

You just have to smile...

just. one. more.

What do I want?

{life's fullest}

Life is good...

Kate Towers= Genius

Alexandria: Mistake

Alexandria, Va. *awesome*

Meet Sawyer. (Me)

The Beginning.....

Alexandria, Va. awesome